Friday, May 8, 2009
Hey there...long time no talk!
Let me tell you about the changes that have been going on in my life in the past two months I haven't really been blogging.
1) I got a bunny for Easter. His name is Smoocher. And he's a spoiled boy.
2) Speaking of Easter, I had a great one. I spent it with Brandon and his family.
3)Speaking of Brandon, he's now my boyfriend. As of April 5th, 2009.
4)Speaking of April, I started my second year of Bible college April 6th and it's going phenominally.
5)Speaking of phenominal, I opened up service on Wednesday night, and all I prayed was that the Lord give me exactly what to say, nothing more and nothing less. And He did. And it was phenominal.
6) I got a job at Ruby Tuesday. And believing for this second job at the pediatrics office.
7) I wrote a song for my mom for mother's day. It's beautiful.
8) I've now written a total of 17 articles for the magazine I work for and none of them have actually been published. But that's soon too!
9) All of the articles I have written have been sent back to me with such postive feedback I cry almost everytime reading the nice things my editor says about my writings.
10) Dat mommy is gonna be having twins soon! Sooo excited.
I think that's all for now. Mainly because that's all I can think of. But at least now we're all on the same page. Haha. Life has been so wonderful. My God is sooo good to me, even though I dont deserve it. I walk in blessings, and Im gonna continue to walk in them.
I LOVE YOU 3:22 PM
Jonah and our intimacy with God.
Today I decided to read the book of of Jonah out of humor. My biggest fear in life is whales, and being eaten by a whale. But in reading, I was amazed at the difference between God and Jonah (as though I should need a reminder that God is different from humans). I’m not sure that Jonah ever redeems himself throughout the four chapters of this short book.
Certainly, there are glimpses of a man who gets it and is ready to move in the right direction, but his heart never seems to settle in who God is or how he moves throughout history. God tells him to do something, he runs away, he turns back, he obeys, and then he gets mad when he doesn’t like the results. Here is a man that should be rejoicing that the fruit of his labor is the transformation of a wicked society, but instead he sits in disgust that God would choose to show compassion. “But to Jonah this seemed very wrong and he became angry… ‘I knew that you are a gracious and compassionate God, slow to anger and abounding in love, a God who relents from sending calamity’.” (Jonah 4:1-2)
I love that the book ends with God scolding him. There is no resolution to the story. God sends him to his room to think about what he has done but never tells him its time to come back out.
Unfortunately, I can’t help but see a bit of myself in Jonah. God tells me to do something, I run away, I turn back, I obey, and then I get mad when I don’t like the results. I think the key to breaking this pattern is found in my intimacy with God. Intimacy with God comes about when I have a detailed knowledge and understanding of God’s heart and activity that comes from pursuing Him as my greatest treasure. This isn’t head knowledge alone, but is instead a knowledge that comes when I immerse my whole self – mind, heart, soul – in the object of my delight. Henry Scougal once wrote that “…the worth and excellency of a soul is to be measured by the object of its love.” Jonah certainly had a knowledge of how God’s heart works and moves but he never allowed it to enrapture him and take control of his own life.
You see, when true intimacy with God is developed in me there is no reason to run away in the first place. When true intimacy with God is developed in me there is no reason to question the results because I trust wholly in the “object of [my] love”.
“You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water. I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you. On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night. Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your right hand upholds me.” (Psalm 63:1-8)
I LOVE YOU 3:16 PM